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Stongly,Madly & Deeply in love... BABY~


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today, my sister came back from langkawi.
not sure how to spell so nvm.
bought me presents :)
just as i tot i could emo a little bit less,
guess whats the present?
its a pair of our yang meh meh and a couple hand phone keychain.
those small small pillow.
the yang meh meh v big lei
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about my little finger de height.
hahahahaha
but only got female de lei.
both oso is the female one.
haha.
i going to hang it on my bag
:D
got 2 so i can hang one on bag pack and keep one at home
:)
already got one on my sling bag le
:|
for someone who is reading this blog,
i've just confirmed with you tat you come here to see my blog so ya.
i want to appeal to drop my 'J' Levels.
i dunno what it will cuz to my future or how hard would it hit me now.
i need to concentrade on getting my poly Diploma first.
k?
of cuz u would agree.
you are the one who instigated me to drop it
-_-
hahahaha
i going sleep soon le.
no point waiting too much. i promise.
i will sleep when u reach home.
hahahahaha
shhhhhhhh!!!!!
dun scold me T.T
hahaha. jkjk
waiting for you to reach home :)

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hope this works.
last time tried with - and 'space' couldn't work out.
hahahaha
jiayou!!!!!
ok.
i going sleep le.
u in lift le.
dun bother u le
i love you baby
nights
muarks...

who will be there to praise me when i do smth good?
who will be there to say me when i do smth wrong?
who will be there for me to show off to when i do smth proud?
who will be there to take care of me when i'm sick?
who will be there to cheer me up when i'm down?
who will be there to care for me when i need it?
who will be there to lead me when i'm lost?
who will be there to an wei me when i need it now?
who will be there to love me and do all of the above?
who will be there?
will you be there?

nth left except for a psp, a yang meh meh, a bball, 2 soft toys and a broken heart.
all these reminds me so badly of yours.
except for that what have i left?
the hello panda which was the last food u fed me.
the porridge carrier which i insisted not to throw away.
and the memories of the 16888 messages u sent me when we were together.
i deeply believe that we might get back together
i really think so
even though how unlikely it seems
or how many people will disagree to this,
i am trying to ignore all that.
ur smiles to me seem so sweet but at the same time so saddening.
seeing u so happy with him and so ... with me
it really hurts me alot.
i really wanted to do anything i can to get me out of my misery.
believe it or not.
always whenever i see a road, i will think of just walking towards it.
whenever i see a window, i will think of me at the opposite side of it.
whenever i see you, i will think that you are so near yet so far.
i really hope i will get some illness like cancer or what so ever.
at least i would know u will care for me anot
i really appreciate the fact that u came today.
but from your eyes,
despite u keep saying future then say future then say.
i know the future is not bright.
but like i say right?
u cannot dun let me try.
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yoo hooo~ baby~
this is a personal column for you~~~
dun worry bah baby. haha
i would try to be normal infront of you and such.
but rmb to see this post k?
this is the only way i can relate easily to you.
haha...
ok?
but dun cry when u see this lei.
cuz is not u make me feel this way de
is i useless. :) :( :) :( :) :(
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seeing you cry today at the bball court was hurting.
i couldn't bear to watch so much so that at one point of time i would want to just go home and/or bring you to a corner and let u cry on my shoulders.
but i know that the second one would not come true now.
i would have definately do that if it was before.
but i hesitated.
how i wish time would just stop at 7.31pm of 19/11
when u were just laughing at me and my probabky.
be it laugh at my step into poodle or what so ever.
just keep laughing at me.
smiling at me
be beside me.
how did my life gladly end in that minute.
19/11/2009 1814hrs.
10 months 5 days, 310th day.

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i love you...

你不会知道当我听到你说的那些话, 我有那么的伤心

ever wondered how it feel like to bite ur lips till it bleed?
well, i do.
pain right?
hahahaha.
not really.
actually, i can barely feel a thing.
its the aftermath that really hurts.
but!!!
that is nothing.
nothing compared to the pain i'm feeling now.
we are still msging but it is so obvious that something is missing...
u want me to face the fact but its so obvious that i cant...
how i wish today was 2nd april and you would run to me with that trademark smile of yours and tell me that what happened yesterday was all a joke and we would go on forever.
but i know it will not happen.
i dun usually like to blog but i have no other choice.
i dun wish for people to see me like tat or even hear me like tat.
tried to find people to talk to but failed.
to that person (if u really saw this) , really nvm :)
wanted to find another person but couldn't..
really not much good friends hor babes..
no wonder slbb will say u.
hahahaha..ha...ha....ha......
i seriously need to stop that fucking bad habit.
empty promises?
i dun want them either.
nxt time i make one of those, i will run straight into the wall.
i mean it.
if u are thinking what i'm thinking now,
no. this is not a promise.
this is a statement.
bball.
how can someone be so lousy?.
like me :)
keep playing keep playing but no improvement.
become lousier somemore.
haha. what the fuck.
now in school.
going to buy something to eat.
should i?
my gastric sibei tong.
but my $ si bei limited.
i still have so many things i wanna buy.
for her...
for us...
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ok.
i go buy and come back le
i just went down and bought a pair of panadol.
saw gastric medi but.
nvm, i'll skip it. :)
i really very tired.
sick with fever and tired tired tired.
going bball later?
should i? should i not?
my mind wants to go.
my body doesn't
and my heart?
its having a serious dilemma.
sent some stupid msges to slbb this morning.
i seriously meant the 1st msg.
only u will know whats the 1st is.
and the 2nd one i oso meant it.
hahaha
ok. i meant all of it.
lol...
now in class. so sian...
so bored...
nothing to do...
hahahaha
my heart wants to get an A.
i so long never get A le.
i really want.
but my body is restricting me.
can i like just close my eyes and get an A?
why couldn't there be a module called Sleep?
i really regret coming now.
how i wish i could be there.
with you.
why didn't i work harder?
why didn't i be more clever?
why?
stupid babes.
fucking retarded.
holding back my tears.
hurts my eyes.
dunno what else to say.
slbb, bball, friends, family, study.
i'm failing in all.
absolutely all.
i've decided.
i will zao today.
i really cannot take it le.
so damn tired.
i will do my best.
for everything.
for every single thing.
i will be going home soon le.
anything then i post again.
see you guys.
love you.

Realmente necesitan la motivación. No sé por qué pero yo simplemente no puede sentirse motivado para hacer nada y todo. Necesito una solución. HAIZ. No sé por qué es así. Ahora un días, se enoja por pequeñas cosas y me enojado con más facilidad. lo que está sucediendo? la vida parece tan aburrido de repente. si no fuera por que yo no sé qué puedo hacer. Que podría ser dejado sin nada? absolutamente nada. Yo creo que mi serio es cada vez menor de EQ y menos lo que significa que puedo controlar mis emociones y menor menor. No quiero ofender a nadie. pero si ofender a mí, por todos los medios llegar.

ei ole vida antatt upang maging šťastný e despreocupado? Ja trid ai upravo sada.

Language frenzy :D

What's real in life? What's fake and lies?
What's here to stay? What ran away?
What's wrong with this? What's right with that?
What should be said? What should be done?
Everyone want to know. But no one ever knew.
Is there really an answer? Or is this part and parcel.
A burden? An oath? Or is it just a matter of both.
Neither here nor neither there.
The facts are found from everywhere.
If you try, you might find.
If you don't, it's just fine.
Tha sky is dark it gonna rain.
A matter of luck, withstand all pain.
but friend will always be there for you and not just for the fishes they'll reel.
Now to end this stupid thing, i'm waiting for my phone to ring.
And what's the point of writing this, it's just to be more creative.
:) :( :) :( :) :( :) :( :) :( :) :(
O.o?

nowadays, ihave found out that i seem to forgot how to express myself. i know who i am and why i am. but i just can seem to express it in the way i want it to be. miscommunication and misinterpretations occur.
jiahao: why am i so quiet nowadays?

ME: please jiahao, thats not you. you cannot be like that.

jiahao: I also want to stop being like this but how? i dunno

ME: you have to buck up. dun just sit there and do nth. its not helping at all

jiahao: i dunno

ME: have you forgotten everything about how to make friends? use them!

jiahao: i dunno, i forgot

ME: this is not the way man! you have to snap out of it!



a problem goes and here comes another.

baby, sry if i make you angry and i know i do it alot. i'm trying my best not to le. i love you...

Baby. i promise you i will use my life to change urs

baby. i'm sry but i really cannot bear to see you like tat... if you see this, i hope it helps. but most likely you are not going to see this. but i'm going to take the chance anyway.

Recently, there is a swine flu outbreak in Mexico which resulted in the death of approximately 81 people. Mexico, which is already struggling with a series of drug wars and economic slowdown, is badly hit by this epidemic outbreak. Due to the recent crisis in Mexico, it is likely that tourism and retail sectors could be badly hit once again after being hit by the worst recession in decades. The flu was also declared a ‘public health event of international concern’ by the World Health Organization (WHO).

this is only 1 para. the rest is all up to you le...jiayou baby . i know you can do it de.

i love you.